I've done nothing...

About a month ago I was all gung-ho about getting into shape. I've done nothing. Not only have I done nothing, my pants are getting too small. I bought tons of pants like 6 months ago and now only half are fitting. I think my lack of dating is killing my motivation for looking good. I don't date, I have no one to impress, so I just don't care.

This is not a good attitude to have. I should be trying to get into shape for me, but let's be honest, fitting into that hot little outfit is only a motivation if you have somewhere to wear that hot little outfit. Over the last few months I've felt like a big reject no one wants and looking hot only makes me feel worse. At least when I look like crap I can tell myself that's why I'm alone... HAHA.

Well... this is just lame. I know I have no time to exercise, but I also know if it becomes important to me I will make the time. *sigh*

What can I do to find some motivation for eating right and getting healthy?

It's Been Forever!

I have SO slacked on this blog, but even worse than that I've slacked on being healthy, at all!

Instead of making this posting a confession time, I'm instead going to make this a I'm-back-on-the-wagon-and-from-here-on-out-going-to-be-better posting :)

Yesterday's Food/Water/Exercise:

8am- 8oz 1% chocolate milk & a banana
11:30am- romaine lettuce salad w/low fat ham, cheese, boiled egg, craisins & ff Catalina dressing
2:30pm- 30 minutes on exercise bike (did 6 miles of rolling hills), 15 minutes weight lifting
3:30pm- banana & boiled egg
4:30pm- 1 can Healthy Request soup
7:00pm- mug of Pero w/2 tsp sugar & a bit of skim milk
9:30pm- 4 celery stalks w/ff dip made of cream cheese, cottage cheese & sour cream
all day- drank lots and lots of water (and peed like every 30 minutes LOL)
10:30pm- did a bit of stretching

Measurements 1-14-10

Waist: 37"
Hips: 44"
R. Arm: 14"
L. Arm: 14 1/4"
R. Thigh: 25 1/4"
L. Thigh: 25"
Weight: 174

I seem to be right at my standard measurements... I sometimes go up and down, but when I'm not working out and eating right then this is where I am. I've packed healthy food for lunch and dinner again, so today should be another good day. I'm also planning on working out again tonight, even though I'm way sore.

I'm trying to avoid carbs for a week to work the cravings out of my body and then I'll introduce whole grains back in. Wish me luck!!!

Working Out

I've done a workout every day this week and I'm pretty proud of myself :)

Monday- 20 min. dance exercise video
Tuesday- 20 min. dance exercise video
Wednesday- 20 min. random exercises
Thursday- 10 min. abs
Friday- 30 min. dance exercise video

Hooray!!!

Measurements Monday

Not too shabby I think :) I'm five weeks in and doing ok. I did 30 minutes of cardio twice this week and I've done 10 minutes of abs almost every day (I only missed Sunday this past week). I've really been working up a sweat with my dance work-out video and I feel great. I just wish my dang hips would do something. I'm losing everywhere else, but they're holding out on me. I'm wondering if it's the colon cleanse... maybe it's making my lower tummy a little swollen? Who knows, but overall I'm happy with my measurements this week.

July 13-
waist: 39"
hips: 44 1/2"
r. thigh: 26 1/2"
l. thigh: 26"
r. arm: 15 1/4"
l. arm: 15 1/2"

August 17-
waist: 37"
hips: 45"
r. thigh: 25 1/4"
l. thigh: 25 "
r. arm: 14 1/2"
l. arm: 14 3/4"

doin' pretty good

I've been working out just about every day... usually it's a 10-20 minute ab workout once or twice a day, but yesterday I did 30 minutes of cardio with my dance exercise dvd too.

I'm feelin' pretty good although the cleanse is still hurting my tummy some. I'm hopin' for some good measurements on Monday :)

I'm finally posting

I've been doing a 20 minute work-out every night before bed. It's not a lot, but it's something. I've been big time craving chocolate this past week and I keep picking at it. I need to just sit down and have a giant candy bar or something, because the picking here and there isn't satisfying the craving and I'm sure I'm taking in more fat and calories than if I just pigged out once and got over it.

I've been good at throwing away things that I'm full of or don't like instead of feeling like I'm "wasting" it and finishing it even if I don't want it. The other day I bought a natural sugar Pepsi because I was having a rough day and really needing some carbonation. The drink was really gross and I threw half away. I was proud of myself for tossing it since that would have been another 100-something calories and I wasn't getting any enjoyment out of it. Also at Costco, the kids and I had frozen yogurt. I ate half and threw the rest away because I was full. Usually I would just finish it, so it wasn't going to "waste".

Hopefully these little things are adding up???

Well...

I did a 20 minute workout yesterday and another 20 minutes today! I know it isn't much, but I'm pretty dang proud of myself. It's been forever since I've worked out at all :)

Hmmm...

I haven't got any exercise squeezed in yet. (and that sentence sounds like I'm illiterate... LOL)

I'm working days and nights, plus taking care of 3 kids and doing school stuff and church stuff. Ugh!

I've been doing ok on eating. I've been sticking to the no eating past 9pm thing and although I've been going to bed hungry and grouchy, I know it's something I need to do. Also, I have been only having one sweet in a sitting instead picking and picking at them.

Yesterday I had to take a salad and dessert to someone in my ward and I just bought them donuts instead of making something so I wouldn't be tempted to eat them (I had a horrible afternoon and would have chowed way too much). And I only made a really small batch of cookies for my kids' afternoon snack today so there was only enough for me to have two small cookies and the rest were for them. That way I don't have cookies floating around my house for days.

So... I'm making little changes! Baby steps, right?

How did I do it?

I'm not sure how I ever survived as a cheerleader in high school. I used to have a few moves :)

I love my dance work-out dvd, but I am so uncoordinated! At least I'm moving and having fun, right?

1 AM Workout :)

It's so funny Chrissy posted about stress eating this week. I've been super busy and hadn't even checked this blog since I last posted. I had a stressful night tonight, fighting with my hubby. My first reaction was too eat. Never mind it was after midnight, I really started craving a bowl of Captain Crunch (cereal is one of my biggest comfort foods).

But instead I kicked butt! I did a 20 minute work-out with my music cranked up! So here it is almost 1 in the morning and I just got done exercising. I feel great :)

I downloaded some of my favorite music earlier and listening to it is great. Another thing I think is funny Chrissy posted about is her fasting. I've been on a music fast of sorts. I haven't turned on the radio in my car or house for about three weeks. I've enjoyed the silence as I drive to and from work each day. It's a 20-30 minute drive each way and I do it 1-2 times a day. So I've had a lot of quiet alone time. It's fabulous. But tonight I felt like I needed a stress reliever.

I'll probably still leave the radio off in the car, but tonight I've been rockin' out to the White Stripes, the Flobots, Avril Lavigne, Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, the Plain White T's and Loggins and Messina... LOL Yes... I have a very random taste in music! Depending on my mood you'll hear everything at my house from Metallica to Broadway to Country to Alternative! My kids have learned to have the same random tastes. They'll have their mp3 players on and be singing along to Bon Jovi or Guns n Roses... he he he

anyways... I'm supposing I should meander my way to bed... I still haven't been sleeping super well. Too much going on, I guess.

Uggghhhh

Here are the measurements... *sniff, sniff*

waist: 37 1/2"
hips: 43 1/2"
r arm: 14"
l arm: 14 1/2"
r thigh: 25"
l thigh: 24 3/4"

I'm not even going to post these on my sidebar. It's too depressing. I've put on a lot in the last month. Obviously the play I'm directing was too much to take on. The stress is showing in my inches gained. Well...

I did a 30 minute dance work-out tonight. My food today was so-so. I did pretty good until this evening... then I blew it with the cheese sauce and chocolate bunny.

2 muffins
1 small slice oatmeal bread
granola bar
turkey & swiss on whole wheat
turkey chili w/ lowfat sour cream & cheese
a few bites of a dark chocolate bunny
baked french fries w/cheese sauce, cheese & ketchup
lots and lots and lots of water

Did I mention lots of water? I think I peed every half an hour all day!

Look at Me Go!

Posting twice in one day!

I did a good 30 minute dance work-out this evening. It kicked my butt! I'm so uncoordinated when it comes to dancing! One of the segments I did tonight was a swing dancing one and I just couldn't get it down. Oh well... I'm hot and sweaty and worn out, so even uncoordinated I'm burning calories :)

Today for food I had:

*3 tortillas filled with fat-free refried beans, cheese, light sour cream and salsa
*low fat oatmeal peach bread
*herbal tea
*water
*100 calorie snack thingy

I'm planning to do my measurements in the morning. I haven't done them for a while and I need a starting point. I'm determined to not buy bigger pants!!! If I have to wear the same thing everyday until I can fit back in my clothes then I will!

Slacker

Yes, I am a slacker :(

Although yesterday when we went out to eat I desperately wanted a burger and fries... but instead I ordered a chicken/steak/steamed veggies bowl with brown rice since I had eaten nachos and chocolate cake the night before. I thought I better not blow it too much two days in a row.

Last night for dinner I had a turkey and swiss on whole wheat and some bbq beans. Not too bad yesterday.

I'm so sad that my clothes are getting too small for me. I really need to start losing again. It's depressing how big the pile of clothes is that I can no longer squeeze into. I haven't seen my hubby since the first of January and he's gonna be very disappointed when he sees me in three weeks and realizes how fat I am.

For anyone who's curious, the dvd I'm doing is called 10 Minute Solution... Dance Off Fat Fast. And I swear the girl is a stripper... LOL So, not only will I learn to stripper dance in the "flirty fat burner" segment, I'll be skinny too! Won't my hubby be happy :) ha ha ha... if only I wasn't completely uncoordinated and stuffing my face with nachos!

New Dance DVD

I bought a new work-out dvd today at Costco for $10. It's a dance work-out. I did 20 minutes of it tonight. It's split into five minute 10 minute work-outs. I'm extremely uncoordinated and can't dance, but it's a lot of fun!

Yoga :)

This week we did yoga at for activity days, which is the midweek activities I'm over for the 11 yr old girls in my ward. I had forgotten how much I love it!

My kids and I just got done doing a 30+ minute yoga work-out. I feel very energized and relaxed... those of you familiar with yoga know what I'm talking about. The kids love it too (they do it at school), so I think we're gonna start doing yoga as a family a couple of times a week.

Monday :)

I had someone ask me what Pero is so I thought I'd share. I really enjoy it. I put a bit of sugar and some skim milk in mine. Mmmm


You can see by the nutritional facts it's a pretty good drink. I like to drink herbal tea or Pero at night when I'm really craving goodies.


I thought I'd also show what I made for dinner tonight. The kids hated it. Caleb even spit out the one bite he took into the garbage. So... it was pb&j for them (with no bed-time snacks) and I ate up my spinach bake like a good girl :)


I've been doing ok on my food. I need to get into the exercise habit, but after last time when I hurt myself I haven't wanted to risk it. My goal last week was to squeeze 90 minutes of exercise into my busy schedule and I only got 30 minutes... at least it's better than the week before, which was 0. This week I'm gonna try and improve.

Owww!

I worked out for about 10 minutes on Monday. Tonight I tried to do my first real work-out since I got in my car accident on January 9th. I started out on my ball. I tried to do sit-ups holding some light weights. After two minutes I got really sharp pains. It's hard to describe where. It's on my right side on my chest kinda on the side of and under my boob. So I dropped the weights and tried to go on. The pain kept getting worse. So I got off the ball and moved to the floor. Some exercises were ok. The pain was still there, but not sharp. Every once in a while I'd do something that would start the pain shooting again. I got a 20 minute work-out in, but here I am 10 minutes later and I'm still in a lot of pain. I thought I was feeling all better since my whiplash, but now I have my doubts :(

Brave or Crazy?

I'm directing a children's play at my kids school. There are 50 kids in it. I send emails to the parents all the time and I have my American Homemaker blog link in the signature, which means lots of parents at our school can easily find their way here to my list of measurements and weight. (Welcome school parents!) I was told by a nice (and skinny) mom today that I'm really brave to post my measurements and weight. So I ask, is it brave or stupid? Should I advertise what I weigh to everyone I know?

I also had someone tell me today I look like I'm getting skinny. Is it just because they saw my weight-loss blog and they want me to feel good?

I'm obviously not going to stop posting my weight. I truly think there is no greater motivator than knowing everyone I know sees if I succeed of fail, but it's just something I was thinking about. I had a friend that stopped donating plasma because my ex got a part-time job there as a phlebotomist and she didn't want someone she knew to know her weight. She lost out on extra grocery money and hello, it's not like his wife was a size 2! Anyways... I'm just rambling now.

Hope everyone is having a good week so far! I'm doing ok. I had blueberries, mushrooms and squash today. I've eaten other things too, but I'm proud of myself for sticking to my goal of eating more fresh fruits and veggies. I've slacked at the sleep thing. I DESPERATELY want more sleep, but my schedule is so hectic I just haven't been able to make it happen. But tonight I am determined!!! to get to bed by 11pm. Working out. Hhmmm.... yeah..... honestly I don't have any desire at all to exercise. Sad but true. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted every day and I think if I tried to fit in exercise I'd start crying. I'm not even joking.

Today:
1 egg
1 slice whole wheat toast
blueberries
2 granola bars
string cheese
stroganoff
mushrooms
squash
water

We won't even talk about yesterdays 1/4lb polish dog, coke and frozen yogurt I had at Costco :(

Monday, Monday

I exercised four times this week and they were longer more intense work-outs (which could be part of the problem since my body has always seemed to do better with moderate work-outs), I've been sick and not eating as much but my stats still weren't that great. My pants are feeling tighter, so I think my tummy is swollen. I'm still feeling off and on yucky. If I'm pregnant, I'll die, so let's all hope I don't have to die :) It's a bit too soon to tell but I'm really hoping it's just some random tummy virus.

12/15/08:
weight: 165
waist: 35 1/2
hips: 43
r thigh: 24 3/4
l thigh: 24 1/2
r arm: 14
l arm: 14 1/4

My Sides are Sore Today

That's all. Just had to whine.