Is this week over yet?

Food today-

Breakfast:
pancakes w/syrup
banana
water

Lunch:
squash
salad w/
romaine lettuce
mushrooms
shredded pork
fat free catalina dressing
water

Snack:
banana
2 snack-sized kit-kats
water

Dinner:
a yummy casserole w/
brown rice
spinach
turkey burger
a bit of italian cheese
and a sauce of skim milk, butter & flour
water

Snack:
orange
herbal tea
water

I'm off to bed now!

Wednesday Food

Breakfast:
huge bowl of oatmeal
natural apple butter
slivered almonds
1 T brown sugar
splash skim milk
1 c chocolate milk

Lunch:
granola bar
string cheese
snack baggie stuffed with carrots
water

Snack:
banana
20 oz cherry coke (I had a massive headache coming on)

Dinner:
large salad filled with:
romaine lettuce
shredded pork
kidney beans
corn
cucumbers
1 T sour cream
a bit of 20 calorie dressing
water

Snack:
1 square bliss chocolate

After work snack:
herbal tea
banana

Not too bad, I think. I felt full most of the day and I didn't really crave anything other than caffeine to get rid of the headache. I'm not sure if it's stress (most likely) or lack of sleep or the need for glasses, but I've been getting headaches frequently.

Brave or Crazy?

I'm directing a children's play at my kids school. There are 50 kids in it. I send emails to the parents all the time and I have my American Homemaker blog link in the signature, which means lots of parents at our school can easily find their way here to my list of measurements and weight. (Welcome school parents!) I was told by a nice (and skinny) mom today that I'm really brave to post my measurements and weight. So I ask, is it brave or stupid? Should I advertise what I weigh to everyone I know?

I also had someone tell me today I look like I'm getting skinny. Is it just because they saw my weight-loss blog and they want me to feel good?

I'm obviously not going to stop posting my weight. I truly think there is no greater motivator than knowing everyone I know sees if I succeed of fail, but it's just something I was thinking about. I had a friend that stopped donating plasma because my ex got a part-time job there as a phlebotomist and she didn't want someone she knew to know her weight. She lost out on extra grocery money and hello, it's not like his wife was a size 2! Anyways... I'm just rambling now.

Hope everyone is having a good week so far! I'm doing ok. I had blueberries, mushrooms and squash today. I've eaten other things too, but I'm proud of myself for sticking to my goal of eating more fresh fruits and veggies. I've slacked at the sleep thing. I DESPERATELY want more sleep, but my schedule is so hectic I just haven't been able to make it happen. But tonight I am determined!!! to get to bed by 11pm. Working out. Hhmmm.... yeah..... honestly I don't have any desire at all to exercise. Sad but true. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted every day and I think if I tried to fit in exercise I'd start crying. I'm not even joking.

Today:
1 egg
1 slice whole wheat toast
blueberries
2 granola bars
string cheese
stroganoff
mushrooms
squash
water

We won't even talk about yesterdays 1/4lb polish dog, coke and frozen yogurt I had at Costco :(

It's been a long week

I finally feel mostly better from my accident, but my week has just been insane. I have so many things going on right now at work, home and my kids school I'm barely keeping up. I did have a good evening with friends tonight. (It's mine and hubby's first anniversary)

I also had some salad and blackberries with my dinner. (yea! fresh fruit & veggies!) I finally got to go shopping this week after four weeks of living off my food storage. I'm loving having fresh food again. We had eggplant parmesan which I fried, so it wasn't that healthy, but just having the fresh veggies makes me soooo happy.

I also got a book in the mail this week from Jen. I'm so excited to start digging through it and try out the recipes. Thanks Jen! You are an amazing inspiration.

Hopefully I will be better at posting this coming week. I'll try but with all that I have going on, I'll be happy to get in a posting here every other day, so that's my goal for the week.

I'm directing a play (with a cast of 50 little kids), doing "Val-o-grams" at our school, I have activity days for my church, my Kid Time activity at work, regular work, keeping up with three kids and a house by myself and getting stuff ready for three swaps. What was I thinking? But honestly when I signed up for the swaps I didn't know I'd be in an accident, which put me behind on EVERYTHING or that I'd be directing a play. The director backed out and took his script with him, so I'm frantically trying to take over a cast of 50 kindergarten through 3rd graders and starting from scratch. Crazy!!!

So anyways.... Hope everyone else's week will be a lot less stress than mine!

What Were They Thinking?

These images are from a "fat camp" in 1938. First off, do these women look fat to you? Second, they're in freakin' high heels!

Nope, still not an 18" waist... get back to work!

Look at the scrawny legs on these women!


Makes me glad I live here and now when every one is fat... LOL I don't have to feel out of place. If I was this size back in '38 I'd be a cow! Now I'm pretty average :)

Wednesday

I haven't been feeling well the last couple of days. The doctor said the pain would peak at day five and boy did it ever. Last night I cried and cried. I had a migraine, my stomach felt sick and even the softest touch to my shoulders, neck or bottom of my head brought shooting pain. I didn't take a muscle relaxer because I'm worried about becoming addicted, but I was so worn out from the pain I was asleep by 11pm. I felt better when I first woke up this morning, but by 11am I was feeling sick and achy again. The computer screen is hurting my head, but I work on a computer. Even the light glare from my shiny name tag is giving my a headache. I'm hoping I feel better soon, but according to the doctor with whiplash it could be another 5 days or so :(

Monday's Measurements

I'm really slacking. It's one thing after another that keeps me from eating right and exercising and what it comes down to is I'm just not motivated. I have no healthy foods in my house that are easy to fix. I'm tired and worn out and now sore so I don't want to work out. I feel like a big loser with this blog and not the good kind of loser... lol. I basically just post my failings every day. Pay day is Thursday (hip-hip-hooray!) and I'll be going grocery shopping for the first time in four weeks. I'm planning on big-time buying fruits and veggies. But I know my hubby and I will be going out to dinner on Saturday night, so once again, one more thing to throw me off :(

Here are todays stats:

1/12/09:
weight: 168
waist: 35 1/2
hips: 43 1/2
r thigh: 25
l thigh: 24 1/2
r arm: 14
l arm: 14 1/2

Here are my stats two weeks ago:

12/29/08:
weight: 166
waist: 36
hips: 43
r thigh: 25
l thigh: 24 1/2
r arm: 14
l arm: 14 1/2

By looking at my food, you can see I don't eat a large amount of food, it's just the wrong kind of food. Once I can go buy fruits and veggies again that will change. I'll be able to eat more and take in less calories.

So far today (it's about 12:30) all I've eaten:

two granola bars
two string cheese
reduced fat wheat thins
water
already eaten 656 calories and I'm hungry!!!
I've really, really, really need to buy some good food!

Yesterdays food:
2 eggs
3 pieces bacon
5 muffins
chili made with steak
bread bowl
water
orange juice
about 2300 calories

Saturdays food:
bagel
reduced fat cream cheese
root beer float
hawaiian pizza
orange juice
two small pasteries
about 2500 calories

To eat less than 1700 calories I really need to cool it. One problem I'm running into is when I'm at work I'm really hungry. Then someone offers me whatever junk at the moment and I take it. In my upcoming grocery shopping I'm going to plan in food to take to work. This year has not gotten off to a very healthy start :(

I am doing ok on my sleep goal... LOL But it's just because I'm on muscle relaxers. I'm not going to take any more of them, so I need to focus on getting to bed on time. I think I'm going to plan out a breakfast and lunch menu for myself also to get me back on track!